mollymauk catchall

[outsidebones]

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[outsidebones]

I don't want you to be something different than what you are. [she winds her fingers together.] I have enough people who have impressed upon me the importance of duty and difficult choices and trade-offs. That has been all of my life, since the time I learned to talk.

[she's blinking away tears again.]

I didn't have a choice. You can argue with me about that, but you won't win. I was cornered, I lost the moment I agreed to come here. You spent so long at the station convincing me I was allowed to choose something else for myself, and it didn't matter, because they made me sign it away again.

The only choice I had remaining was the choice of whether to carry this burden on my own. And I would not relinquish it, Mollymauk. I wanted to be able to say, to some part of this, no. That I will not do.

[headmt]

I'm not going to argue. You won. The arrow has been loosed from the bow, and it's too fast to chase down now. So I'm going to be angry for a while, and then eventually I won't be. Alright?

[outsidebones]

I didn't say you couldn't be angry.

[though she struggles with it a bit, not knowing well how to separate approval from love.]

[headmt]

[ if it helps, he's really only angry in that way you can be angry with someone you really do love and care about. he doesn't have a lot of anger for other people anyway, especially people he dislikes - it's not an emotion he bothers to have if he doesn't think it's worth it. ]

... Aquila wants to talk to us.

[outsidebones]

...Hmm.

[she frowns a little.]

I already talked to Aquila, on Saturday. [when her brains were scrambled eggs.]

[headmt]

Yes, and your brains were scrambled eggs on Saturday, so I expect it has something to do with that!

[ so insistent about this! why mollymauk! for what reason! ]

[outsidebones]

[why does she not want to. but she sighs.]

Very well.