mollymauk catchall

[outsidebones]

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[outsidebones]

[...]

Clarity. No recriminations, or fear of whom one can trust.

[headmt]

... It sounds as if you're asking me because you already want to, you know? If you were going to keep it a secret, you just would.

[ because she is very good at keeping secrets. ]

[outsidebones]

It's less that I want to. I don't want to, I think. But I feel maybe I ought to.

[headmt]

Maybe, maybe not. You have my opinion, which is that I don't really think I want you to do it.

Clarity is overrated. Trust isn't, but people trust you because you are worthy of trust. You're still working to help them as hard as you can, even if you did kill him.

But I don't want you to resent me for telling you not to.

[outsidebones]

[a small laugh.]

Why do you care whether I'll resent you. You should resent me.

[headmt]

[ immediately, and with some force: ]

I could never resent you. Not for anything.

[outsidebones]

That's stupid. Resent harder.

[headmt]

No, fuck off.

[outsidebones]

I know I don't have that much experience, but I believe you are allowed to resent people who you love when they mistreat you.

[headmt]

Ah, but I got that really good apology and everything about how I don't really deserve to feel angry, but I'm forcing you to say sorry anyway because I'm a monster.

[ is this said a little ........ resentfully? ]

[outsidebones]

I didn't say any of that.

[she frowns.]

I said sorry for what I was sorry for, which is that you were hurt by it. I'm not sorry for what I did, or that I excluded you from it.

[headmt]

[ also frowning now. ]

The more qualifiers you add to the statement, the less it actually counts.

[outsidebones]

It's better if the qualifiers aren't because I thought you were wrong to be angry, and only because I wasn't sorry.