[He's quiet for a second at that, and beneath the usual impassivity, there's something that's maybe a little tired. Tired in the same way that he'd been on Friday.]
...It was something else. [A brief glance toward his hand, and then back up to her.] I had no real interest in attending that party.
[Sometimes you have truly nothing at all to go back to, wrow.]
For the specific reason, I should like to keep that to myself. But I can at least tell you that it shouldn't affect any of the rest of you.
[if it's personal, she doesn't care. she's sorry to see chandra die for a reason like that, but knowing why won't help anything now.]
It does affect us. Lavi, Uriel - if your desire was truly to die, and it had been known - [she sighs] But no one was forced to vote for them to begin with, as has been my continued frustration for weeks now.
I've seen something of you, so I will state plainly that I believe you owed nothing to either of them, nor to any of us. [she doesn't want to suggest he should have been sacrificed, knowing how he was treated before.] It is only that I tire of pretending the choices we make in trial each week are entirely outside our hands, that different ones are not possible.
[His expression shifts and changes as she speaks, bitter-edged for a moment at perceived implications before understanding once again. There's a dry half-smile and an even thinner laugh.]
Don't mistake me. If things were so simple as a desire to die, I wouldn't have made any efforts to keep myself out of this damned jail.
[Especially given the lack of restfulness any death here would provide. Still, he considers Harrow sharp and perceptive and someone who exists perhaps a little too closely to himself in certain ways, and he doesn't particularly want to reveal too much here, so he moves on.]
But I do understand the frustration. I have my doubts that you'll be seeing any further accidental deaths from here on, but it may be worth bringing this discussion to the rest of them. Even if they're largely idiots, it would still be satisfying to see them break things instead of simply following the set rules.
True enough. Maybe I'll work my way up to toppling him as overseer of this place, given a few millennia or so.
[He's not unused to endless swaths of time or goals that last for ages, at least, so it's something enough to keep himself entertained with, even though it's clear he's half-joking.]
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...It was something else. [A brief glance toward his hand, and then back up to her.] I had no real interest in attending that party.
[Sometimes you have truly nothing at all to go back to, wrow.]
For the specific reason, I should like to keep that to myself. But I can at least tell you that it shouldn't affect any of the rest of you.
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[if it's personal, she doesn't care. she's sorry to see chandra die for a reason like that, but knowing why won't help anything now.]
It does affect us. Lavi, Uriel - if your desire was truly to die, and it had been known - [she sighs] But no one was forced to vote for them to begin with, as has been my continued frustration for weeks now.
I've seen something of you, so I will state plainly that I believe you owed nothing to either of them, nor to any of us. [she doesn't want to suggest he should have been sacrificed, knowing how he was treated before.] It is only that I tire of pretending the choices we make in trial each week are entirely outside our hands, that different ones are not possible.
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Don't mistake me. If things were so simple as a desire to die, I wouldn't have made any efforts to keep myself out of this damned jail.
[Especially given the lack of restfulness any death here would provide. Still, he considers Harrow sharp and perceptive and someone who exists perhaps a little too closely to himself in certain ways, and he doesn't particularly want to reveal too much here, so he moves on.]
But I do understand the frustration. I have my doubts that you'll be seeing any further accidental deaths from here on, but it may be worth bringing this discussion to the rest of them. Even if they're largely idiots, it would still be satisfying to see them break things instead of simply following the set rules.
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[if anything, it makes her angry to watch everyone pretend something happened to all the people executed.]
If a more thrilling competition is the goal, there are ways to give him one.
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[Said on a little huff of a breath, a barely-there, not-quite laugh that isn't accompanied by a smile.]
I'd love to join you, but things do take strange turns.
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[He's not unused to endless swaths of time or goals that last for ages, at least, so it's something enough to keep himself entertained with, even though it's clear he's half-joking.]