I expect the same, but I have not yet resigned myself to it. I think it would be a pity to accept the terms of this competition are ironclad before they have even be laid before us.
...Such was my attitude last time. [ you can only have your expectations betrayed so many times before you lose your luster and sometimes become a rat man of the mountains. ] But there is some inevitability for what's to come, even if I do not know the shape of it yet.
[ the specifics are a mystery, but the overall storyline to all these games has followed a similar path. ]
While I will not accept defeat from the outset, tragedy follows us from place to place.
[sorry that we turned you feral before your time, dimitri.]
...It does. And we would both be foolish not to consider it probable. But nor are we entitled to abdicate our duty to steer events to a better outcome if we can.
...With effort, we were able to turn around both of the other times I have seen this happen. Not without loss, and not without heartache. [ he's hopeful in some ways, and not in others. ] Our only choice is to do that again. I am with you on that.
[she listens to him and then when he's done, nods.]
In some ways, I think it better to have your attitude than to...feel too content with the notion that we will manage to set it all right and revive anyone who is killed. It makes me feel ill at ease that some appear to have such certainty about that.
Too easy by far to rationalize away the consequences of one's actions.
Is that how it turned out for you as well, then? That everyone returned to life in the end.
[ he muses aloud, tense enough that he nearly crushes his flimsy to-go tea cup. ]
...That was not the case for every participant at our camp. [ the thots. ] It troubles me that anyone could view death without the finality it deserves. Even if we have watched our ghosts return to us... it feels like nothing more than a dim hope.
[ and when it comes to death and dying, dimitri is not an idealist. ]
And it may be just as foolish to hope that we can resolve this without more death, but... I want you to be right. That we do not have to settle for the choices we will inevitably be given.
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I expect the same, but I have not yet resigned myself to it. I think it would be a pity to accept the terms of this competition are ironclad before they have even be laid before us.
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...Such was my attitude last time. [ you can only have your expectations betrayed so many times before you lose your luster and sometimes become a rat man of the mountains. ] But there is some inevitability for what's to come, even if I do not know the shape of it yet.
[ the specifics are a mystery, but the overall storyline to all these games has followed a similar path. ]
While I will not accept defeat from the outset, tragedy follows us from place to place.
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...It does. And we would both be foolish not to consider it probable. But nor are we entitled to abdicate our duty to steer events to a better outcome if we can.
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That much is true. We are obliged to try.
[ he sounds tired, but genuine. ]
...With effort, we were able to turn around both of the other times I have seen this happen. Not without loss, and not without heartache. [ he's hopeful in some ways, and not in others. ] Our only choice is to do that again. I am with you on that.
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In some ways, I think it better to have your attitude than to...feel too content with the notion that we will manage to set it all right and revive anyone who is killed. It makes me feel ill at ease that some appear to have such certainty about that.
Too easy by far to rationalize away the consequences of one's actions.
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[ he muses aloud, tense enough that he nearly crushes his flimsy to-go tea cup. ]
...That was not the case for every participant at our camp. [ the thots. ] It troubles me that anyone could view death without the finality it deserves. Even if we have watched our ghosts return to us... it feels like nothing more than a dim hope.
[ and when it comes to death and dying, dimitri is not an idealist. ]
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[she watches him nearly crush the cup with mild concern.]
I agree. Resurrection is a rare thing. It is not to be trifled with or taken lightly.
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...Resurrection is a fool's dream in my world.
And it may be just as foolish to hope that we can resolve this without more death, but... I want you to be right. That we do not have to settle for the choices we will inevitably be given.
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