[ he's just standing there, even paler than usual, eyes shut as he rubs his temples. he has plenty of upsetting memories, but this is one of the few that actually scares him. ]
I seem plagued with memories from... an older version of myself. The one from the campus.
...I'm sorry you had to witness such a monstrous thing.
[of course this would be frightening, especially if it depicts a future that is hard to square with this dimitri, someone so noble and gentle despite the obvious ways the events here strain him.]
Do not apologize. I'm sorry that you had to witness it. [...] Do you really believe that to be you?
[ this is such a specific and hateful piece of lore to have.
he doesn't really talk about this with anyone, and never has, so he's not sure what to say either. when he does speak, his voice is quieter than before, treading carefully. ]
Yes. Frankly, I am not certain how you deal with it.
[she doesn't like to talk about this, either, but it's come up so much already.]
I have always had to ensure I had one or two people around me who I could...trust, to a degree, though often it was their loyalty to my title I trusted in more than anything. And I would rely on them to tell me what was real and what wasn't.
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I seem plagued with memories from... an older version of myself. The one from the campus.
...I'm sorry you had to witness such a monstrous thing.
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Do not apologize. I'm sorry that you had to witness it. [...] Do you really believe that to be you?
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I have no doubt. People have met that man—that version of me—and he is as real as anything. I cannot say I'm surprised by who I amount to.
After all, you heard my thoughts for yourself.
[ he's a madman and a murderer. ]
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[she stops herself before she mentions she heard he killed someone with a rap :( ]
...Yes. Well. [she has no idea what to say.] My thoughts are not always sensible, either.
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he doesn't really talk about this with anyone, and never has, so he's not sure what to say either. when he does speak, his voice is quieter than before, treading carefully. ]
Yes. Frankly, I am not certain how you deal with it.
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[she doesn't like to talk about this, either, but it's come up so much already.]
I have always had to ensure I had one or two people around me who I could...trust, to a degree, though often it was their loyalty to my title I trusted in more than anything. And I would rely on them to tell me what was real and what wasn't.