[ this is a strangely specific thing to bond over. ]
I... see. [ ... ] I was much the same with my own professor. But I do not think he would hold any resentment for you—doubt is not so much a sin as a precaution, or a reaction to past hurt. Unless you act out on it, I wouldn't punish you for feeling something.
[ people have emotions, and sometimes they're bad. that's just how they are. ]
A suitable punishment. Very well. I have confessed to what I have done, and I will sincerely admit that...I chose to leave behind my training with him to go elsewhere, somewhere I am a bit less unhappy. And though I love him dearly, I think God is...quite driven by different motives than I might have, and that is the source of my distrust.
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I... see. [ ... ] I was much the same with my own professor. But I do not think he would hold any resentment for you—doubt is not so much a sin as a precaution, or a reaction to past hurt. Unless you act out on it, I wouldn't punish you for feeling something.
[ people have emotions, and sometimes they're bad. that's just how they are. ]
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No, you are right. That is the worst of it - he would not hold it against me, rather, he would blame himself.
But I suspect you are meant to be punishing me for my sins, not absolving them.
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Well, absolving sin is rather more pleasant.
[ but he's pretty good at doling out punishment when it's called for. the problem is that harrow seems nice. ]
If your sin is doubt and privacy, then perhaps you can repent with truth and sincerity.
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[she nods approvingly.]
A suitable punishment. Very well. I have confessed to what I have done, and I will sincerely admit that...I chose to leave behind my training with him to go elsewhere, somewhere I am a bit less unhappy. And though I love him dearly, I think God is...quite driven by different motives than I might have, and that is the source of my distrust.