[she feels a little sad looking at all of it, but it's a sadness that's more personal, that doesn't really appreciate the history.]
It has been empty for ten thousand years, of course. Other than the monks left behind to care for the place. The Emperor himself does not return. He has great enemies, and he does not wish to draw them towards the system where his children live.
My home is not so lovely as this, but it is dear to me. But in pledging my service to the Emperor, I took the same burden upon myself. If I return, I would only bring the same enemies to their doors.
I do not know that I would necessarily say so. My people have always held our duty in high regard, and we have not experienced those consequences... but others in these places often seem to find a dedication to duty strange.
They do. They often suggest it can be given up or traded for one's personal happiness.
[a sigh.]
That the Ninth House is strong will always come first before anything I might wish for myself, because I know what would be lost, to see them suffer or fall. That is what I mean by the consequences - something greater than myself that I could not bear to see lost.
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[she feels a little sad looking at all of it, but it's a sadness that's more personal, that doesn't really appreciate the history.]
It has been empty for ten thousand years, of course. Other than the monks left behind to care for the place. The Emperor himself does not return. He has great enemies, and he does not wish to draw them towards the system where his children live.
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[after another moment or two of silence:]
One must wonder how it would feel, in that situation. To have such a place they cannot return to, for its own safety.
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[but the comment makes her sad.]
It is very lonely. Bittersweet, because you know it will always be there, safe.
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...I would do the same for my home, were there a need, but I would miss it.
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[she closes her eyes for a moment.]
My home is not so lovely as this, but it is dear to me. But in pledging my service to the Emperor, I took the same burden upon myself. If I return, I would only bring the same enemies to their doors.
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[he's quiet for a moment or two, in turn.]
Do you expect that matters shall ever be resolved to a point where you may return?
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You would understand such things better than most here, then, I should think.
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[a sigh.]
That the Ninth House is strong will always come first before anything I might wish for myself, because I know what would be lost, to see them suffer or fall. That is what I mean by the consequences - something greater than myself that I could not bear to see lost.
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[a slight shake of his head, there.]
I could not bear to see my own people fall, either. There is nothing that could come before the well-being of Etheirys.
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